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So much wrongness being thrown at you that you just give up and they win.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Moe came round last night. I told him how there wasn't anything to eat at the party. That's why everyone went home. They got hungry and all I had was cereal. He agreed. He said he would have gone home too and so it's not bad of them to have done that.
"Yeah"
We agreed about it.
"So... why didn't you come?" I asked, squinting my eyes up a little bit but he was on the other side of wood so my body doesn't matter. I could be pulling faces at him and saying all these bad things at him sofltly. He wouldn't respond and he wouldn't care.
"Why didn't I come to your party? The one that you said you were having last week?" I wonder what he was doing with his body. "How did it go with that friend of yours? Did him and that girl fall in love in the end?"
I thought about when I saw David and Sarah holding hands at my party. They were sitting on my bed and telling everyone all aobut all these thigngs that get to them. All these reasons for needing to love people. You couldn't blame them there.
"Yeah."
"Okay." He said, being short with me. "So what happened?"
I told him that I could see into her heart when she talked about people. She talked about what people ate. She talked about how people talked. She told me why people all listen to the same music. It's about community. She didn't say this. I knew this. People need each other.
I didn't tell him the whole story because I didn't know yet and couldn't have possibly guessed at it.
She came back to me this morning. She had David by her side. As she walked in I told her that I always liked her smell. I said that she reminded me that I was on Earth and not in a spaceship somewhere. She didn't respond. She seemed to not have heard me.
David was standing next to her and was looking at me while I said it. He didn't change the whole while. He waited for me to finish and asked me if anything had been up recently. I joked and said that nothing is ever up, except for our perception of it.
I don't want to have someone move about me with all their sadness just hanging out.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
I joked and replied that nothing is ever really up. It's just that we allow ourselves to get carried away with all this junk that excites us that we start to think that there's a difference between what we enjoy and what we don't. Me even saying that we could enjoy something is proof of how much this affects all of us on all these levels.
It's crazy how carried away we get as people.
Sarah told me that she understood the whole shark thing. She said it must be incredibly lonely for me. I couldn't help but think about her father. I had a party a week ago where she told us that her dad had lost his job and had been drinking more and more and just sat around the house all day. All the kids are old enough to take care of themselves so it doesn't matter if he gets drunk at eleven in the morning as long as he doesn't make a mess while he does it.
I told Sarah that she was the only person that understood me and she looked into me.
"There's so much sadness in your eyes." She said softly as not to disturb the peace that we had settled into.
I couldn't help but wonder if she saw the sadness because I was thinking about her dad being so lonely just drifting away from his family because he can't find a purpose anymore. It became apparent that the only reason that she could see any sadness in my eyes is because she knew sadness in herself. If I could get that sadness in my eyes just by thinking about her dad, imagine how sad she can make herself be by thinking about hers drifting away She knew mine through hers and hers was a more powerful sadness than mine.
I told her that it's because I know so much about people. After a while all you can see is their sadness. That's why I live alone. I don't want to just sit around and watch someone move about me with all their sadness just hanging out.
Maxi
you're so observant
Posted by 'xine on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:03 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
Who's more observant: the person who is observant or the person who sees that the other person is observant?
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:10 PM
Arbot
might not you be sad?
and thats why you see it in everyone else?
Posted by Arbot on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:06 PM
Arbot
I know thats why I see so many sexay people..
Posted by Arbot on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:07 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
I tried to work out the next logical steps involved in this and my mind just kept going in loops or it would just shoot out to some incredibly far out and clever place of like, absolute understanding where you can't even begin to grasp the things that you're understanding.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:14 PM
Arbot
oh Sharky, your a blast
Posted by Arbot on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:16 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
Arbot!
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 11:18 PM
Niel
its either loops or it has a point. i think its loops and that is "the secret" of life. i dont think we should understand, but i could be wrong.
Posted by niel on Monday, February 12, 2007 at 12:07 AM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
Yeah, I think that loops are way easier because you can jump on at any point and you haven't missed out on any of it because there isn't any beginning or end.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Monday, February 12, 2007 at 3:31 PM
All the things that I don't openly appreciate even though they've stuck in my head for so long.
Monday, February 12, 2007
I even told Sarah that David was going to leave her. She didn't understand him all the time. She was pretty upset. She left without David and he spent the rest of the night playing TV games with me. We didn't speak that whole night.
We were sitting around on Saturday and I told them about how Celene was so distant and that she always just expected me to do all the relationship. It's not like I was ready for that. I mean, she was probably even my first girlfriend. It was quite a big change getting married. It was all so sudden after we got together in Japan and her dad found out and told us that we had to get married. Her dad was all about pride and tradition and stuff.
"Why did you leave Japan?" Sarah cared but she seemed a bit shocked.
"We had to. Japan was real bad. Everyone was crazy back then." I answered.
I told her how weird things were after the war. How everyone was poor. Celene's dad had given Celene to me because he thought I was a rich tourist or something. I didn't really have any money back then. I just had her.
"What do you he 'gave' her to you?" Sarah was bit upset by this.
"Um... He didn't want her." I replied. "No one would marry her after I had... um..... after we met"
Sarah got pretty angry now. It was like it was happening to her right then. Like she was scared of marrying me and spending the rest of her life with a shark in an apartment somewhere in Africa.
"Look, I didn't know that's how everyone was going to react. It was weird after the war." I explained. "It wasn't like I just saw her in the street and decided to ruin her life."
"Well maybe you should have thought about it before you met her!" Sarah practically shouted at me.
"Well. You know what? David was going to break up with you! He should be with someone that 'gets' him." I said, concentrating on not letting my voice let in.
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User comments
Arbot
good thing you got outta japan
they definitely eat shark-fin soup there
sorry, but its true
Posted by Arbot on Monday, February 12, 2007 at 10:19 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
I don't know, man. People definitely thought we were pretty cool back then. They loved us.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Tuesday, February 13, 2007 at 9:38 AM
Arbot
did she move back to nihong?
or did she stay in the country
I bet your coll, regardless of the decade
Posted by Arbot on Tuesday, February 13, 2007 at 11:51 AM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
I don't know where she is. Last time I kicked her out, I found her a few years later. She'd been living on the premises.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Tuesday, February 13, 2007 at 2:29 PM
chu tu
times were tough
Posted by chu tu on Monday, February 12, 2007 at 10:58 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
But you should have seen the ladies. They were different back then.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Tuesday, February 13, 2007 at 9:41 AM
I killed a guy and the wall exploded.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I saw David again today. He's still a bit upset. He's quiet. I said that he could play as many rounds of TV games as he wanted but he said, "I'm not in the mood. I'm really tired."
It turns out that he hasn't been sleeping well recently. I probably hadn't either. I guess I'm a bit of an insomniac. I didn't know what to say back to him.
"I haven't heard from Sarah." He said.
"Oh." I replied.
I killed a guy and the wall exploded.
"You're going to need to pick that up" David's voice had an air of authority.
I looked at him and smiled. His face loosened up slowly. He said that I was low on health and needed to eat. His lips softened and he slowly pulled them apart. He smiled at me.
"Give that here!" He flung his hand out with his voice and threatened to grab at me.
I whipped the controller at him and he proceeded to unleash a lost friend's worth of wrong-doing onto these 2D baddies. I shrieked as within seconds a boss swung an impossibly large iron ball at him with a menacing chain.
"Look out!" I clenched my jaw. "Kill them!"
It is the day that people love each other.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
The landlord is coming over later. He's going to cook us a nice supper and he said that he's bringing wine. He says that there's nothing special about Valentines day and that it's all marketing. I don't know if I believe him. He seems pretty desperate. He said he'd pay for all the food that he's going to make.
As a joke, I asked him if David could come. He didn't think it was very funny. i was smiling when I said it. I was grinning even more than when I usually joke so that there was no chance that he didn't know that I was joking. He said that David could not come and I asked him why not.
I think it's a bit weird that my landlord wants to wine and dine me on valentines day and won't let my friend come round because he wants me alone. I told him this and he got angry at me.
"Shark, you're not being funny. Just drop it." He said.
I was all like, "Well, maybe you should accept me and my friends for who we are and not always try run our lives."
I think I want to do something special for him tonight. Like buy him some new stuff or something.
On Sharkania we didn't have Valentine's day. We had something on March the 12th where all the boys would shoot out all their semen at once so the ocean was full of the stuff. The girls would all be trying to catch it. It also got pretty commercialised. I think that a lot of the time they used fake semen because a lot of the younger guys thought it was embarrassing.
Also, they got really weird about it. If you get your semen on one of the boys around you, usually no one cares But people started doing it deliberately. After that started happening, if you got some on another boy you'd probably get beaten up.
I didn't actually see it because I wasn't made yet, but I've heard so much about it that it's practically the same thing.
It got pretty scary.
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User comments
niel
i think valentines day is almost like the 12th of march thing on sharkanie, i think people just do it behind closed doors...
Posted by niel on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 5:31 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
What would be the point of that?
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 8:25 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
Also, people would probably 'forget' to invite you. Not that that's anything new, it would just be easier.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 3:13 PM
Maxi
i like sharkania's version more ^_^
Posted by 'xine on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 7:55 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
Yeah, the Shark of Wisdom was in quite a weird mood when he told me about it.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 11:09 AM
Dave Dave Dave
Pretty awesome, pretty terrifying!
Posted by Dave Dave Dave on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 9:28 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
What's terrifying is when a bunch of boys who don't like you beat you up and just say that you did it deliberately even though you didn't do anything. No one cares about your side of the story because they're having so much fun.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 11:12 AM
Arbot
I thought you would have something interesting to say today
Posted by Arbot on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 12:38 AM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
It's all about perspective, man.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 12:02 PM
Arbot
I just realized my statement was ambiguous
because you couldn't hear the tone
I didn't mean it to be
Posted by Arbot on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 11:39 AM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
I just realised that your statement's ambiguity affects mine. I thought your statement was nice and my reply was nice. Now that I see that your's could have been mean, I feel bad for replying with something that wasn't positive. It now seems apologetic and sad.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 11:57 AM
Arbot
Mine was meant as nice, but the amiguity of yours threw me off, so I started to clarify, but then said fuck it, nuthin wrong with a bit of ambiguity.
Posted by Arbot on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 12:04 PM
The Ancient Shark Of Despair
I didn't mean it so that it meant that some people will like it and some people won't. I meant it in the only way that perspective should be meant. I meant it so that it means that I say things that people think are interesting because I have got so much perspective from being a shark and stuff.
Posted by The Ancient Shark Of Despair on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 12:11 PM
Arbot
I getcha sharky
now... I mean that in the simpler sense, as in I understand waht you mean by the above statement, and the previous statements it clarifies. Not the broader sense of me getting you as a shark, cause I don't, its probobly a species thing.
Just thought I'd banish the ambiguity, cause I'm going to bed and cant play anymore
Posted by Arbot on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 12:20 PM
